I just wanted to reinforce what Riven (and Roquen) are saying. Laws don’t always match intent. “Possession” in some cases can be sufficient to get you in trouble, even though you dropped it like a hot potato.
The only related case I know about involved a local (San Francisco Bay Area) popular talk show host, Bernie Ward, who’s career was destroyed. He was very critical of the Bush administration, and was taken off the air when child pornography was found on AOL servers (not his computer, but the AOL account used for emailing the photos to a sex-chat dominatrix) and he was indicted by a Federal Jury. His defence was that the material was “for research purposes” on a book about hypocrisy in America. This defence didn’t fly with either the general public or the jury. He ended up plea bargaining guilty to a single count of emailing files. Most probably this was not an act of political recrimination, and he was indeed guilty. I’m not a lawyer either, but I don’t find it hard to extrapolate from that example to any sort of witch hunt, and mere presence of certain types of files being legally incriminating.
[quote] the first thing i noticed is that people doesn’t react seriously to the problem, some even laughed
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I agree, the lack of a serious response can be pretty upsetting on its own. I am reminded of a close woman friend who, as a child, was the victim of molestation from her uncle. She went to her mother with it and the mother’s response was to dismiss it as being “as common as weeds.” The only repercussion for the uncle was to try to avoid him as much as possible and never be alone with him again. Things like that can leave scars! (And he did go on to molest other victims.)
How could her own mother be so callous? My speculation was that she had also been a victim in her youth and received the same response when she reported the problem. Behaviors can be passed down for generations, with certain immoral acts rationalized or “swept under the rug” rather than confronted. At some point with these cycles of evil, people need to take a stand and stop them, rather than being cynical and allowing them to continue.
A couple other historical examples: slavery, pedophilia in the Church, a culture/mindset that blames women when they are raped…
[quote] i surely need someone to talk with about these things
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[quote] it literally got into my mind from no where, it’s very chocking, i can’t find a stronger word to explain it.
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“choking” or “shocking”?
[quote]the images that i saw are very very very disturbing for someone like me, and if they doesn’t go away, i will think about consulting a therapist
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Absolutely, it makes sense to look into this further, it seems to me. There’s nothing to lose. I’d want to understand more about why and what in the world is being done about it. There are various people that can be consulted will have varying degrees of expertise. I’d try to find someone where the individual has direct training, knows the literature and appreciates the reality and seriousness.
But, it sounds like you just have an distaste for this stuff combined with some sort of blood pressure problem that’s causing you to faint when you’re emotionally distressed, doubling the distress because you fainted and now everyone is freaking out around you.
